does she ring your bell?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLE!!! yeah i know, you'll tell me this is way late as your birthday "ate" belle was back in May 20 pa.. but since we never did any formal celebration yet, okay pa rin.

Wow! one of my super bestest friends in the world just turned 22! =) and as give a tribute for you here in my dearest too good to be true blog, let me post my firendster testimonial.. i know, naiyak ka dito..

if belle would be a bell, i guess i'll be deaf by now (O.A.!)... imagine hearing the ringing from grade 1!! yup, that's right. we've been clasmates since grade 1, became barkada in high school, dormmates in college, blockmates, orgmates, choirmates, classmates, then eventually lovers!!!(huwattt!!!) joke lang! hindi nga kami maintriga kahit na ano gawin namin (remember, in vivere hotel i took a bath with you?). belle is the type of person na i can just sit down with and talk about evrything, eminisce our past, evaluate our today, or plan for tomorrow.... i know, i know, we dont often hang around now...differences in our priorities and schedules, maybe... but you know our kind of friendship is something that is not high maintenance, i can just live it in a corner and do my things without a doubt that i can always go back to that corner and still find it there waiting for me with open arms...between us, she's sweeter, she never failed to give me gifts on my birthday you know.. guilty nga ako e.. kasi for my past two birthdays, i wasn't able to spend the eve with her and yet when i went back to my room, there's a gift waiting for me and a note that she waited but too sleepy to wait any longer...she is so patient pa when it comes to my stories. she never fails to lend ears and she's one of the very few na kilala siguro ako inside out... she knows just what i feel even before i could say it.. sometimes i am thinking if she's my soulmate (uyyy!) no, really!! im so nostalgic na here... basta belle, i may not say it but i'll always be here... just be assured that whatever you do, someone's
here to support you all the way.. "and when you've flown into great heights and all you dreams are taking place and when you laughed into the world, i too shall laughed" hehe.. pirated itong last line...

hay girl, sobrang miss na talaga kita.. lunch natin ha.. iterat mo pa.. overnyt ulit ako.. ready your house with some tissue and an all-night kwento.. let's do it next time pag bagong sweldo tayo pareho.. and please, file a VL! miss you so much.. love you.. =)

one of today's sweeter songs

YOU'LL BE SAFE HERE
Rivermaya


Nobody knows just why we're here/ Could it be fate or random circumstance/
At the right place, at the right time/ Two roads intertwine
And if the universe conspired/ To meld our lives, to make us fuel and fire/
Then know wherever you will be so too shall I be
[CHORUS]
Close your eyes, dry your tears/ 'Coz when nothing seems clear/ You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight of your doubts and fears
Weary heart/ You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed until we cried/ At the most stupid things like we were so high
But love was all that we were on, we belong
And though the world would never understand/ This unlikely union and why it still stands
Someday we will be set free/ Pray and believe
[CHORUS]
When the light disappears/ And when this world's insincere/ You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream/ I'll scream with you/ You'll be safe here

Save your eyes from your tears/ When everything's unclear/ You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight of your doubts and fears/ Wounded heart
When the light disappears and when this world's insincere/ You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream, I'll scream with you/ You'll be safe here
In my arms through the long cold night/ Sleep tight/ You'll be safe here

When no one understands/ I'll believe
You'll be safe/ You'll be safe/ You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands/ You'll be safe here

a shot back..

In love, I've learned one very important fact, which I had earlier been so foolish to disregard, a simple question that goes like:

"Before you talk about finding the right person, have you ever considered yourself being the right person for anyone?"

The question shot back at me when I asked a friend:

"How do you know that it's the right person?"

How ironic, isn't it?

Point being, we should be more of the "right person", for our personal growth, likewise, to be ready to love someone without being a burden (or at least be less of a burden, hehehe)

Although it's true each person has his or her own share of shortcomings and strengths, how true it is that we neglect to realize how much we need to rectify ourselves to become better individuals, instead of spending time whining about someone elses shortcomings, love lost, or love unfound.

But then again, Im no expert, as I have so much more to learn.


*thanks to joshyboy of IHG

To my huggable, sweetest, most gwapo ever dad...

on my way home, i held on tight to my dad's framed grad pic, a gift i promised to give him to match the one i gave mom during her recent birthday. i stared at the photo, seeing so much of me in him. the man that i love and abhor at the same time is exactly my carbon copy. he was so young in the pic but last april 25, he had just turned 51. 21 of those years spent playing the role of a father.

People used to say that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do. Well, my dad and I could be living testimonies to that statement. I could say that we had some of the greatest fights ever known. ( hehe, exaggerated, i know!) . We would quarrel over almost everything - family matters, education, religion, personal beliefs, politics, priorities in life, economics, including petty things such as TV channels, the time he would pick me up, basketball games, on how i have always been late, on how he has always been a nagger. But of course, when i say fight, it's not the almost boxing matches scene. hey, he is still my father! these are more of overly-exaggerated tampuhan.

but like any sweethearts coming from a fight, the sweetest moments between me and my dad is the suyuan stage. when all tempers have hyped down, and one would feel sorry for hurting the other, we will make up for what we did. i would bring him cake as a peace offering or he would invite me to a father-daughter date in a videoke session ( actually, a videoke challenge). there are times that forgiving wouldn't be so easy. and so the pakipot stage would come into the picture. when it was him who is making the "suyo", i usually make it difficult for him, not speaking with him for almost 3 days which will make him nuts. ain't that cute? haha..

of course, we don't just do fights all our lives. we have a lot of sweet moments as well that i truly treasure. i usually like it when my dad is super sweet, texting me just to check exactly where i'm at, asking if i have already taken lunch, or when he would force me to sleep when he thinks i need one.Or whenever he would assure me that he will pin down the guy who would break my heart. it brings complete joy to me whenever i see that little boy in my dad and when he could never wipe away that boyish smile in his face when i call him "gwapo". In those nights when we don't feel like watching TV, we usually talk underneath the stars to just make plans for our family. Planning the future with dad is a reassurance for me coz when he is there, evrything else seems to be just alright. My favorite will be cuddling with my dad. I love hugging him. Brings a lot of comfort to me.

well, you see, my dad is not the perfect father in the world. He had caused me a lot of headaches and heartaches in the past. i have hated him a lot times already. but you see, i'm not a perfect daughter as well, i know i have hurt him as much too, caused him troubles, gave him disappointments. we are not perfect daughter and father but i sure know we are a perfect pair. hey, no one else will be able to handle my dad the way i do! i love him for the same reasons that i hate him.. confusing? well, whatever! it just works for us. and i just love it the way it is..