the reason

i never meant to heighten the pain of Your thorns. i never meant to scourge each whip, to burrow down Your nails. i would never want to cause Your tears. but I did. i'm sorry.


I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to You
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want You to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm sorry that I hurt You
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put You through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all Your tears
Thats why i need You to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to You
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want You to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I've found a reason to show
A side of me You didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is You

sleepless in washington (not necessarily in seattle)*

been having dreams lately. less sleep but more dreams. beautiful dreams which seemed to be too real that when i woke up, i almost believed they happened. or maybe i just so desire these things to be part of my waking reality. actually, there are some patches that until now i could'nt figure out if they really happened or not. however i tried to define the line between these dreams and my reality, i just couldn't.

do you remember that place where tinkerbell will always love peter pan? the place between dreaming and waking up? that is the place where i danced away with my dreams.

but just like my reality, the dreams had to end as i needed to wake up. memories, though, are too sweet to rekindle. but please, nightmares no more.


* all the dreamings and hallucinations took place in our lovely abode - 6944 Washington St. Brgy Pio del Pilar, Makati City. just to explain the title.

love brings out the poet pirate in you..

posted with the consent of noelle, a new-found friend whose poems i am an avid fan of. he willingly showed me the "snippets of his life" . i hope he finds his real joy to write about in that little book.

ONE LAST TIME

Far away from our dreams
Like a distant memory you shall pass
And the wind that blows from north
Shall now turn east
More than anything I wish for you
To stay and cuddle me in your arms
One last time
One last time,
Hold me and do not go.
Let me hear you heart
I want to know who it beats for.
Is it for me?
And then as the end draws near,
I shall hold my breath
Trying to persuade my heart to beat
The look on your face
My heart and soul will remember.
I will remember you
In every moment that you were with me
In all the places we were together.
I need you
But I dare not be selfish.
You must go
I know that now
I’d ask you not to
But I will not cloud your dreams.
When you go
Take a piece of my heart with you
Keep it and be silent
Just remember that more than anything
I love you!



FOR YOU WHO MADE ME CRY

And then the day comes to this
And I feel a pain from nowhere...
No you do not hold power over me.
I forget it's over.
I forget it has ended.
Let me hold you and feel the memory of the bliss
You once brought me.
I mourn not for you
But for an angel.
Too much waiting,
Too long I have suffered,
And now one last tear
One last
For everything that was,
is, and will be.
One final twitch,
let me feel it for you
for soon it will pass
I know I should not feel it
I know it is wrong to
But then again..
I call you now
From up the sky come down.
We share but memories of the past
and hopes for the future,
But I guess now that's not important.
Tears from the heart burns
like the dying of a rose
It withers, crumbles, turns dark, stiff, cold
and then decays.
Soon all these shall pass,
but until then..
For you who made me cry,
Let it fall one last time,
One last tear
And then.. It ends.

tenkyu! tenkyu!

oct 1 2005

for the 1st time in my 22 years of existence, i celebrated a birthday that actually made me feel older and well, err.. wiser, hopefully..

here are some greetings i received that made me feel so much treasured and loved..

THROUGH TEXT:

* and kauna-unahang bumati ay si PK, sept 29. dahil akala niya oct 1 na.. hahaha.. get some rest, PK.

reggie: hapi bdey my dear friend! god bless

owen ni isaac: Hapi bday leslie!

ARVIN SUN: Hapi hapi bday my dear friend! Miss u so much! I hope ul enjoy ur special day! =)

gmig. butch: Leslie! Hapi birthday! =)

mom: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! SN MATUPAD LAHAT NG MGA PANGARAP MO AT NAGPAPASALAMAT AKO KAY LORD AT ISA K S IBINIGAY NYANG ANAK KO (naiyak ako dito. hindi ko alam kung dahil sa message or sa realization na all caps pa rin magtext ang mommy ko)

.poh (aka milben): Huffy virdie, lisli! =) will greet u more later! =)

belle: BEAUTIFUL people reflect GOD in their lives. They THINK HIS thoughts, SPEAK HIS Words and LOVE without end. May YOU Remain a Beautiful Person ALWAYS. Happy birthday les! C u so0n! Mwah

belle: Happy birthday ate leslie siguro 30 years old ka na mang libre ka naman magpadala ka na lng ng cake okay ba- lynette ( belle's little sis )

michelle: gud am po! ei hapi bday po! =) luv u! Godbless =)

.tams (aka ian): Hapi bday ate les! =)

Dad: Happy bday anong oras uwi mo ( ang sweet nitong isang ito no?)

lao sun: If we commit ourselves to Christ and follow in His way. He'll give us life that satisfies with purpose for each day. =) May the Lord bless all the days of your life, happy birthday! =) - lao n milx

JC: Ate leslie! =) jc hir. Ung nakasama mo sa caravan. happy birthday! =) i wish u happiness, gu healthnd mre blessings! take care! =)

katre: Prs0ns of xceLent chractr r nt ez 2 find. Dey r Lyk d eagles.Dey fLy aL0ne & dey s0ar vry high..Happy birthday God's eagLe! enj0y urflight 2day.Fly high! =) mwah!

B9.raechie: Chuvs! Hapi 34th bday! Sna mkta kna ni mr ryt mo.Hehe. mwah!

b11.mau.sun: Think of marilyn m0nroe as she sings happy bday for JFK: happy bday 2u, happy bday 2u.. Happy bday, happy bday.. Happy bday 2u.. Happy bday les.=) mwah! - mau

kraymer: The wisest people on earth are those who have a hard time recalling their worries.. and an easy time remembering their blessings. Happy birthday!! =)

Phoebe: Happy Happy Birthday!! Musta na?! Wishing you all the best, sa family, career,love n life. Goodluck n Godbless.. Kita kits! Ingatz..

gmig.ramon2: Oi kuya belatd hapi brthday po! - ramon

alfred2: My gus!!! Ate les, happy birthday!!! c: god bless! c: kelan ang party? Hehe..

THROUGH EMAIL:

pepito: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PO. censya na ngaun lang kc pina close yung outlook e. see you in an hour... (",)

tm tony: Since Leslie will be on leave this Saturday (in time for her natal day), let's all greet her aN ADVANCE HAPPY BDAY!!! May the Lord shower you with bountiful blessings and good health! Sana lang magpakain siya dibahhhhhh! Hay naku! Hwag idolize si Pat na tatahimik tahimik lang. *LOL

crt ann: JAPPY JIRTDEY JESLIE!!!! OMG!!! Wish you health and your soulmate to come... =) Mwah!

crt my : Hapi birthday Ms Tayao.... Pasensya na now lang ko naka e-mail kc sobrang hot line kami ni Boyet aka Philita....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

team CRT : Happy Birthday Leslie! OMG!!! =)


PERSONAL GREETINGS:

a loT!!

THROUGH FRIENDSTER:

thanks to some friends who greeted me through friendster. your messages are just too long and personal to be placed here.


so to everyone, i appreciate your remembering.. =)