my opponent in you

i always knew that I would do peculiar things for you
for reasons I, myself, could not comprehend
but I was still captured, caught in awe
realizing I have dangerously done something
I never thought doing
- love you.

it finally hit me and it hit me hard
bringing me to a world where hurt is abundant
and escapism is the only way out.

no.
i don't want you to think I easily gave up
the big sucker of pain in me said that this is worth the pain,
worth the effort, worth fighting for.
so i could assure you that in my own, silent way, I fought.
faced the battle against myself
and the events beyond my control.
and though i want to say i gave a good fight,
i know when to raise the white flag
and just hope that my weak strength will be enough
to face the incoming thrusts of pain.
just as i learned that at the other end of the battle field,
the one i have been in duel with all this time, is you.

LAO is a many splendored thing

hope you had a great one! sorry i wasn't there..you know naman the reason..hehe.. basta, we are always here for you lang. sobrang miss ko na ikaw!!! i'm so glad to have seen the side of you unknown to many. God bless, Lao... =) Love you, friend! =)

gimme five!

hey, ben sori for the late answers.. wag ka na po magalit...

para kay leslie:
1. which one would you prefer french fries, mashed potatoes, boiled potatoes, potato salad, or herbed potatoes? why?
I'd say french fries, especially if it is from McDo. I don't like mashed potatoes as they remind me of my food when i was 6 months old. Boiled potatoes are bland. Potato salad does not appeal to me at all and Herbed potatoes is something i do not remember having tasted.


2. what will you do if on the day of your wedding, you wake up with 200 pounds extra fat?
I will call my husband-to-be and asked him if he would still want me to be his wife with my additional 200 pounds. If he would say Yes. I will fly to the wedding and walk down the aisle, towards my man as the happiest bride in the world. If he says no.. well, at least I learned before I say the I dos that he is only after my gourgeous body (hehe..)and not me as a person.. but on the serious note, really, it would be a blessing that I learned how shallow his affection for me is.. then i'll go to the gym, lose those fats, make him feel sorry.. beh!


3. if you were one of the survivors of that killer tsunami, how would you pronounce "tsunami"? /tsu-nami/ or /su-nami/ or /chu-nami/? this one is tough ha.. cguro, i'll use tsunami.. the first syllable kasi sounded like asking something to go away (you know.. like tsooo!tsoo!).. siguro same thing goes for the tsunami, if i could just shoo it away than losing all those lives...


4. what Pinoy movie resembles your life?
I'd say Milan. The movie reminds me of my life in so many ways, not exactly the role of the bida but bits and pieces of the characters in it. same thing goes for kailangan Kita. Although, Sana maulit Muli is my personal favorite and I still haven't forgiven you and Ian for depriving me to watch the film last time.


5. what is your most fave Christian/Gospel/Praise&Worship song? Why?
I would say " Stand In Awe" because that has always been how God is in my life, he's just so amazing that you'll be awed. But i would say "Heart of Worship" is coming as a close second.

para sa pinakaguwapong panget..hehe..

from this little cutie....

you have grown to be this ....

so what happened?.. hehe.. joke lang.=)
well,i would have to say that i am glad that somewhere along your 21 years, we've met and became friends and as you say, i should feel lucky and honored..sige na nga. basta, you know naman that i will always be here lang for you.. hahaha.. i'd have to stop here before this goes mushy! basta, more fun with you and the rest of the gang in the Big Brother haus...

To you and Kraymer boy, who is also one hell of an astig guy...