hey yo mamiyo!

what can i say? it's your birthday again... and just like the good'ol days, im giving some flowers and a cake and a gift. for the nth time, i wanted it to be something grand! something extravagant, something you deserve. but here i go again with the kiss and all my sweet nothings. when will i ever find the perfect gift? something that could tell just how much thankful i am for all the things you've done for me. material thing or whatever! but i can't come up with one. if i'll just know it, i'll work my ass out just to give that to you.
sometimes, i do not know if i had told you how much i love you. or much more if had shown that to you. if only you could read this, ma!
i just looked at you this morning. i could see the signs of the 48 years, the wrinkles could be due to the 21 of those years spent with me. i know i have never been a difficult child because you just know how to raise us well. but everytime i would think of all that we went through as a family, with dad and michelle, i could swear to the world that we will never have to go through those again. you will never have to go through that again, never in your life, ma!
i know sometimes, well, a lot of times, you are so possessive of me, always wanting me by your side. but i want you to know that eventhough i do whine at times, i want to feel needed by you. i want to be there for you to provide strength when you badly need one. strength that you yourself taught me. strength that came from you. i can always be your shock absorber when the world doesn't seem to go right for us. and i hate myself for the times i felt tired of doing these things for you.
sometimes i feel that your world just revolve around us. i know you have a life too before we came to your world. but you never had a second thought to just drop that life in exchange for us. i hope i could put into words just how thankful i am but i can't. after my salvation, you are God's greatest blessing to me. thank you for always being the understanding mom that you are, for listening to my concerns, for giving value to what is important for me and giving value to what i say, for covering up for me , for forgiving me a zillion times, for listening to my pains, my heartaches, for loving me with all your heart, unconditionally, for being my best friend, for crying with me, for rejoicing for all my triumphs, well, not that i have a lot, for being my strength. ma, i just want to tell you that i love you so much! more than i can say, more than i could show! thank you for your sweet big heart for me, I love you ssooooooooo much! i could disappoint the whole world but not you, ma. happy birthday ma! i love you...