Sunday, September 25, 2005

my opponent in you

i always knew that I would do peculiar things for you
for reasons I, myself, could not comprehend
but I was still captured, caught in awe
realizing I have dangerously done something
I never thought doing
- love you.

it finally hit me and it hit me hard
bringing me to a world where hurt is abundant
and escapism is the only way out.

no.
i don't want you to think I easily gave up
the big sucker of pain in me said that this is worth the pain,
worth the effort, worth fighting for.
so i could assure you that in my own, silent way, I fought.
faced the battle against myself
and the events beyond my control.
and though i want to say i gave a good fight,
i know when to raise the white flag
and just hope that my weak strength will be enough
to face the incoming thrusts of pain.
just as i learned that at the other end of the battle field,
the one i have been in duel with all this time, is you.

2 comments:

pepito said...

deep. sobrang deep...yun lang. got it? i didn't. sana lang, when i finally get to wake up, you'll still be here. thanks a lot my dear housemate...

leslie said...

my dear housemate,

deep ba? haha... well, this just says it all e..
thanks a lot din for teaching me and making me realize a lot of things, so many things..
basta, alam mo namang tulog o gising.. nakanganga o tulo laway, i'll always be here and would still be a friend to you..