under the knife

about 4 hours from now, i will be in the operating room of makati medical center for my, well, operation. i know you might be wondering and concerned (hopefully) what in the world i would do there. well, this has been bothering me for some weeks now. i felt this lump which i actually did not mind at first. i thought it was just a tiny thing that would just soon go away. but it grew bigger and the pain.. ohhh!.. it just kills me. so i decided to visit the doctor last Monday at makati med. thanks to my intellicare card. it serves like a globe card in that old commercial where you can just flash it to them and voila! you can just stroll along the corridors of makati med even if you barely got 20 pesos in you pocket. So i waited for the doctor, and told him ( he looks sooo mabango.. well, all doctors naman yata e) about that lump. he told me the history of the lump and instantly diagnosed me to go through a minor operation! huwaatt! for someone like me who never frequents the hospital, this is one BIG THING! he told me that i really have to go through this to take it off as well as the possibility of it growing back. wow!

except for the colds i experience everyday after i'd wake up, i could say that i am gifted with a very good immune system. i don't have any childhood memory of being hospitalized. visits to pedia, yes, but more on vaccines and vitamins. i've had all kinds of sickness one normally goes through- measles, chicken pox, mumps- but i was never confined in a hospital. well, i experienced being moved within the emergency room once in a stretcher when i and a former officemate were hit by a vehicle along ayala ave. pathetic, i know. so this operation thing is actually making a mark in my health history. i'm not afraid though. i was even planning to go there alone despite my mom's being so kulit on accompanying me.. maybe, i am (again) trying to prove the fun, fearless female in me.

then i tried to imagine what they are going to do with me - the anesthesia, the knife, the laser, the possibility of blood, the bandage, medicines, the recuperation period and yes, the pain. nyay! and it started to scare me. so i really prayed that everything will go okay- the OR, the doctor's hands, eyes and mind, the tools he will use. I prayed for the readiness in me. this is a first for me and all firsts in my life are really memorable and full of anxieties/excitements. i also prayed for my work to allow me to do SL (sick leave) without affecting my compliance. of course, i can always file for SL but it will affect my compliance which later will affect my schedule bidding. as of writing, i got an answered prayer. my manager is already processing a pre-approved SL which will NOT affect my compliance! so i'll be out of the office and be back on Monday.

only 3 hours 42 minutes remaining. i'm still here in the office and writing this. later im going to meet mommy. i finally agreed that she accompanies me after i scared myself. and i agreed as well to stay in Valenzuela afterwards. please do pray for me. i hope everything goes well. i am hoping for an ouch-free operation. for your flowers and get-well-soon card/letters, you may send them either to my Valenzuela home or my Pasig apartment. You may also join my housemates for a surprise(!?) coming home/get well soon party they are preparing for me. just coordinate with them.

3 hours 30 minutes to go. at least after the operation, i wouldn't have to burden myself with this lump anymore. hay, this wart on the sole of my right foot is killing me!